#2 Her Sin. Not Mine

courtesy: Katherine Evans

The youngness of her flesh was her sin not mine;

So despite her confused state, trapped in that

flowering body, ruled by a child's mind,

I pursued her;

to her chagrin

and let my intentions be known

through the thirst in my eyes,

my grown hands on her fleshy thighs...

I was the only male presence in her home

when I came around,

since the one who should have led,

left;

her mother to fill a gap only he could

and as a result gave me

silent permission to teach her

the reality of what some men were about.

Her guide not knowing how to lead

herself,

just a product of the new vicious cycle

she still formed a part of

had no qualms about the goal I had,

since I made it clear that her offspring

was my prize for the having.

In her own broken, bitter mind,

she would never try to deny her child,

what she thought she had always needed.

Me.

A poor replacement for her own loss.

The man she never met and the thwarted love

that left her with this...

Growing, glowing cellular invention

with his eyes and her inherited

sense of grief and defeat.

This child that she could barely feed;

As old as the age she learnt that

childhood was for other children

and not for her;

And that sacrifice was easier with your eyes open and

your soul deadened.

She would, yes, give the girl to me.

I was all she ever wanted,

everything she never knew.

She was the alpha female in her home

and her consent was the throne

upon which my ego used as a commode...

Soiled,

but satisfied after the purged ills

of my lust was flushed.

Like she knew I was.

She was blind, teaching one who had

not yet learnt to see...

Thus,

my game was played

and the irrelevant tongues that

whispered would remain, checked, mate.

Just hushed voices that eventually

would recede into society's conditioned amnesia

when barely legal I'd gift her my name and seed.

And fully grown,

only she would remember how it all began...

With the youngness of her flesh.

Her sin. Not mine.

My Inspiration: Society’s ignored injustices. (2014)

© KohylahPiper 2015